Hi everyone,
Happy full moon in Scorpio, if a day late! I’ve had quite a busy weekend – I apologise for the delay in getting this up. It is a real truth or consequences moon – read on!
Calling the circle
As we come to another full moon in Spring, we call to and honor the spirits of the East, spirits of this season, of new beginnings, new starts. Element of air, first breath, cool dawn. The power of life, springing forth. We call the spirits of the East and ask them to join our circle.
We call now to the spirits of the South, spirits of strength, power, warmth, clarity, motivation, energy, movement. Element of fire, bright fires lit at midday. The power of light, illuminating us. The fire that is our passion, burning deeply within us always. We call the spirits of the South and ask them to join our circle.
And we call to the Spirits of the West. Spirits of our deepest feelings, our strongest emotions, our truest love. A sunset over a calm ocean, a still lake reflecting back the sky, the still waters that run deep, deep within. Element of water, emanating the power of love. We call to the spirits of the West and ask them to join our circle.
Now we summon the spirits of the North. Spirits of midnight, dark moonless skies in winter, places where truths are told, where laws are made. Element of earth, grounding us. Power of law, karma, ancestral wisdom, we call to the spirits of the North and we ask them to join our circle.
And we call to those spirits above us, angels, stars, heavens, light beings everywhere, those souls not yet incarnate. Children of our children, and to the brightest of moons. We call the spirits above and ask them to join us.
And we call to the spirits below us, to the earth that grounds us and keeps us steady, the green kingdom with its deep roots and to the lava beneath the crust that impassions us. We call the spirits below and ask them to join us.
Finally, we call to the spirits of the center, where all the directions meet and merge and where they meet and merge in each one of us. The central flame. The sacred spirit. This circle is closed, a safe and sacred circle where everyone is welcome and free to express themselves.
Where is the Moon?
The full moon is in Scorpio and it is really compelling us to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. In this case let’s think of the consequences not as what would happen if you didn’t, but what if you did and you got every single thing that you wanted? And it all just fell into place beautifully? Scorpio moon is a big mover and shaker – when you powerfully put it out there you can move mountains!
Talking stick
I often mention that as I look back on these posts I recognize the patterns of the moons, the seasons, and the cyclicality with which they do seem to present themselves. I was poised to write about how certain types of confrontation are just so difficult for me, and there it was in black and white, from two years ago, me saying a similar thing. The difference is that this year I actually feel I have made some progress whereas there I said that I wanted to want to tell the hard truths in my life. Let me be clear, I still struggle with this. Particularly with really close relationships where I’d really rather say nothing. But a funny thing happened this week. Gary is beginning to sort out some plans for his future and I found myself getting edgy, a little annoyed around the small things, a little bugged by this and that, and I started to wonder why so I decided to meditate about it. I realized that what I was doing, kind of unwittingly, was projecting a great deal of fear regarding what the changes for Gary were likely to mean for me. And they were all based on just the worst parts of our history together, nothing that currently reflects where we are now. I would ordinarily sit on this kind of thing and not tell Gary about it, mainly for fear of a big confrontation and set of misunderstandings. Although the way this can sometimes go is I keep it in, I keep it in, I keep it in, then at the exact wrong moment it all comes flying out – and then it really is all wrong. So, I thought this time I’d say it when I was thinking it, but try to do it in a really honest and loving way. And it worked! We had a good conversation about it instead of a bad one and in it I was able to see that I was catastrophizing about something that may never even happen. And I don’t want to put that energy out there for Gary, I really want him to feel great about moving in this direction or any direction, really. And, more importantly, I believe we have been together long enough that he deserves me coming to him with this kind of worry just as I would expect that from him.
I would like to say that it goes this way for me all the time now, but it really doesn’t. But I am getting better at it. I have swallowed my words for years in some cases and I am trying, slowly, to voice them and as often as possible, with total love.
My intention for this full moon is to love and appreciate my growth and also to take another good look within for any lingering truths to be told. And to seek out the truth of others and remember to hear their truth the same way that I’d hope they would hear mine.
Meditation
Imagine yourself lying beneath a flowering apple tree, its petals all around you on the ground. The night is cool and clear; as you breathe in and out feel that you are breathing in time with the stars, that you are a part of the setting that surrounds you. Then allow yourself to imagine that you are getting smaller – smaller and smaller until you are so small that you can stand up and walk into the tree that you were lying underneath. Walking into the tree, looking up, note the vast branch system, how tall and high it is, looking down, note the vast root system, reaching down into the earth farther than you can see. Then, notice that one of the roots is larger than the others, and resembles a spiral staircase. Imagine then stepping onto the 13th step, the step of transformation, then spiraling down and around and inward to the 12th step, then down and around to the 11th and the 10th, spiraling down and around and inward to the 9th, then the 8th, then around and inward to the 7th and the 6th step. Then, pausing on the sixth step, note that as you look up you can no longer see the top, and looking down, that you can no longer see the bottom. You are standing in the middle of the spiral, in a moment of infinite perfection. If there is anything that you are carrying that you don’t want to take with you on your journey, you can leave it on this step. Continuing then to the 5th step and the 4th, spiraling around to the 3rd and the 2nd and then finally the 1st step, then stepping into a clearing with four doorways, each pointing in one of the four directions. Imagine yourself walking down the pathway that heads east.
It is mid-morning and a beautiful, bright day. The colors of spring are becoming very vivid, and everything feels as though it is buzzing with life. You make your way down a path that leads over a mountainous terrain, so you are aware that you need to sometimes walk carefully, but most of the time you are able to just enjoy the sweeping views on all sides. In the distance you see a dwelling, and you make your way toward it. When you arrive you recognize it as a place both ancient and familiar – the home of your wise woman.
When you arrive, as you are about to knock, the door swings open and your wise woman greets you, giving you a big kiss and hug. Her home feels particularly familiar today, the most at home you have ever felt here. She leads you to the kitchen where she has cooked for you and you speak freely with her about anything that comes to mind, or just listen to what she has to say to you.
When you are ready, she leads you from the kitchen to a hallway with many doors. You walk to the doorway that feels right for you, and walking through, you step out onto a bridge made of pure light. As you stop to look at it, you see that it is a bridge that is taking you from where you are to where you need or want to be. As you walk across it, you notice anything around you, anything that you may be bypassing to cross the bridge. Your wise woman walks with you, answering any questions you might have. When you get to the centre of the bridge, you can see where you started and now quite clearly where you are going. You are able to make a choice at this vantage point whether to continue going forward or not, knowing that there are many bridges, many paths. But if the direction does feel right, you continue on. When you get to the other side, there is a small gift waiting for you at the foot of the bridge, which you pick up and keep to remember this journey. Your wise woman leans forward and whispers one word or phrase to remind you of it as well. As you take a step off the bridge you realize that you are in another room, with another door, but you are able to walk through it back to your wise woman’s house. When you are ready, she leads you out of the room, reminding you that this is a place that you can return to whenever you need to and that there are always paths and bridges to be crossed.
She leads you back to the front of the house, back to path that took you here. She gives you a big hug goodbye, and while in her embrace, you thank her and then head back to the path, drinking in the feeling of peace and home. You step again into the mountainous terrain, heading back toward the doorway that brought you here. When you reach the doorway, you step back through.
Stepping back up onto the first step, spiraling upward and outward to the second step and the third, and upward and outward to the third step and the fourth. Then spiraling around to the fifth and the sixth step, and pausing now on the sixth step, retrieving anything that you left behind before, or just leaving it behind in that perfect moment in infinity. Climbing now to the seventh and upward to the eighth, upward and outward to the ninth, then the tenth, and around to the eleventh and the twelfth and then finally to the thirteenth step, the step of transformation, then lying back down onto the earth where you began, under the beautiful apple tree. And when you are ready you open your eyes.
Prayers for our circle
I’ve had no specific calls to prayer this month, so let’s just hold each other and our world in love and light.
Much love to all of you!
Tara
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sunday, April 06, 2008
New Moon in Aries, 5th, April, 2008
Hi Everyone,
Happy first new moon of spring – what a great time for new starts! I hope you are all feeling the courage, optimism and faith renewal that this moon can bring. Those of you in NY, a reminder that we are meeting on the evening of the 8th, 8:30pm. I’ll email again that day with full details but looking forward to seeing you in person!
Calling the circle As we contemplate this new moon, we call to the spirits of our season, the spirits of the East. New beginnings, new starts. Element of air, first breath – the power of life, springing forth. We call the spirits of the East and ask them to join our circle.
We call now to the spirits of the South, spirits of strength, power, warmth, clarity, motivation, energy, movement. Element of fire, the power of light, bright and powerful. The fire that is our passion, burning deeply within us always. We call the spirits of the South and ask them to join our circle.
And we call to the Spirits of the West. Spirits of our deepest feelings, our strongest emotions, our truest love. A sunset over a calm ocean, a still lake reflecting back the sky, the still waters that run deep, deep within. Element of water, emanating the power of love. We call to the spirits of the West and ask them to join our circle.
Now we call to the spirits of the North. Spirits of midnight, dark moonless skies in winter, places where truths are told, where laws are made. Element of earth, grounding us. Power of law, karma, ancestral wisdom, we call to the spirits of the North and we ask them to join our circle.
And we call to those spirits above us, angels, stars, heavens, light beings everywhere, those souls not yet incarnate. Children of our children. We call the spirits above and ask them to join us.
And we call to the spirits below us, to the earth that grounds us and keeps us steady, the green kingdom with its deep roots and to the lava beneath the crust that impassions us. We call the spirits below and ask them to join us.
Finally, we call to the spirits of the center, where all the directions meet and merge and where they meet and merge in each one of us. The central flame. The sacred spirit. This circle is closed, a safe and sacred circle where everyone is welcome and free to express herself.
Where is the Moon?
This new moon lands in Aries, joining the sun, focusing on our own individual goals and abilities to manifest our will in the world. This is the biggest and best new moons for raising some energy and making things happen. It is the moon of youth and vigor and innocence - remembering how easy it was to accomplish impossible tasks until they suddenly seemed hard. Believe powerfully in yourself and your ability to move mountains!
Talking stick
By a design that has nothing to do with moons, I find myself spending this particular one in New York again. Owen has school breaks in between his terms that are four weeks long, so it makes sense to take this time to come to New York to catch up with work. I like that I am here for it though, particularly in light of the particular theme of how even seemingly insurmountable tasks were a great deal easier to accomplish without the filters of age and experience, and somehow New York represents that perfectly. I was young here and often didn’t think about how hard something that I wanted to accomplish was, I just decided and went off in that direction. Not everything worked exactly the way I wanted it to, but in the meanwhile there were some genuine miracles that came out of that exuberance.
I don’t mean to suggest that I don’t have the ability to harness that exuberance and enthusiasm and belief in myself now because in fact I think I do. I feel stronger and more powerful. But – I also have those filters and they are an asset in many ways, but they also have the potential to be a liability. Sometimes I don’t want to think through every consequence, I just want to act, feel, intuit, move. I am definitely trying to embrace more of that over the last few months, and what I feel the most as a result is that my creativity has really been buzzing, lots of new thoughts and ideas that I want to pursue. I’m really grateful for this renewal, timed with this new spring, because back in December things really felt a bit sticky and mired. Glad to be out of it!
I also want to note that Owen is six now, and really becoming such a wonderful, sharp, loving and funny little person. I feel so unbelievably grateful to be a mother. It has changed me immeasurably and in all the ways that I hoped it would. It is a constant challenge to face myself, learn, grow and adapt. And, the main thing, which ties into the moon theme as well, is it is never the same. Owen is constantly in motion and cannot be pigeon-holed. It is different every day and it reminds me not to allow myself to get stuck in ruts of belief about myself as well.
That sounds like an excellent new moon intention: to remember that I am always changing and different and not get stuck in ruts of thinking about myself!!
Meditation Imagine yourself lying beneath a fragrant apple tree, on a warm, clear spring evening. You are surrounded by flowers, lying on soft earth, breathing in and out in time with the breeze, in time with the stars. As you breathe, you feel yourself getting smaller and smaller, until you are so small that you are able to walk right into the tree. As you look up, you note the vast branch system, how tall and high it is, looking down, you note the vast root system, reaching down into the earth farther than you can see. Then, notice that one of the roots is larger than the others, and resembles a spiral staircase that you can walk down. Imagine then stepping onto the 13th step, the step of transformation, then spiraling down and around and inward to the 12th step, then down and around to the 11th and the 10th, spiraling down and around and inward to the 9th, then the 8th, then around and inward to the 7th and the 6th step. Then, pausing on the sixth step, note that as you look up you can no longer see the top, and looking down, that you can no longer see the bottom. You are standing in the middle of the spiral, in a moment of infinite perfection. If there is anything that you are carrying that you don't want to take with you on your journey, you can leave it on this step. Continuing then to the 5th step and the 4th, spiraling around to the 3rd and the 2nd and then finally the 1st step, then stepping into a clearing with four doorways, each pointing in one of the four directions. Imagine yourself walking down the pathway that heads east.
The time of day is early morning, and the earth warm and light, the sun shimmers and everything is just buzzing with life. You are struck by the intensity of animation of the animals, insects, plants all vibrantly glowing in the light of morning. You listen to their sounds as you walk, listening for anything that you need to hear. As the path winds deeper into the meadow, you become aware of a dwelling in the distance, one that you know well. You move toward it, knowing that you have reached the home of your wise woman.
As you are about to knock, the door opens and your wise woman greets you, welcoming you in. Her home is as completely comfortable and safe for you, and she leads you to the kitchen where she is cooking. She offers you whatever it is that she has cooked for you, and you sit and eat or drink with her, asking any questions that you may have, or asking for any wisdom that she might wish to share with you.
When you are ready, she leads you down a hallway, with many doors. You walk to the doorway at the end of the hall, noticing anything in particular about the door as you walk through. You step out into the air and begin to fly. You are able to fly over your life, see all the people and places within it; you can fly to the future or the past, anywhere you need to go. Your wise woman flies with you so that if you have any questions along the way, she can answer them for you. Finally, you fly to a place, time, or circumstance where you really want to be. You become one with the you that is in that place and you really experience what that life feels like, and anything you need to know about creating it, staying in it, or really anything else about it. When you feel you are fully able to create that life, you separate again, flying back to your wise woman house. You fly back to the door, and when you are ready, you open it and step back through.
You head back toward the kitchen, sharing any last minute thoughts, asking any last minute questions. As you reach the door of the house you say your goodbyes, and while in her embrace, she whispers one word or phrase and presses an object into your hand that will help you to remember the wisdom that you received. You thank her, then you return to the path that runs along side the stream, listening again to any of the sounds of the water, or just noticing anything else that you need to see. When you are ready, you walk through the doorway.
Stepping back up onto the first step, spiraling upward and outward to the second step and the third, and upward and outward to the fourth step and the fifth. Then spiraling around to the sixth step, and pausing now on the sixth step, retrieving anything that you left behind before, or just leaving it behind in that perfect moment in infinity. Climbing now to the seventh and upward to the eighth, upward and outward to the ninth, then the tenth, and around to the eleventh and the twelfth and then finally to the thirteenth step, the step of transformation, then back into to the tree. Stepping out of the tree, you find your place beneath it, again enjoying the cold night air. Then, feeling your consciousness return to the space you are in, and, when ready opening your eyes.
Prayers for our circle
Sacha, may you be welcomed home with love and light, you will be so missed here in the UK! Also lots of love, support and healing for Felicity, Sacha’s mom.
For a couple of women who are friends of my mother’s, both of whom I was close to growing up and both of whom are really struggling physically. That they find the strength to carry on, or when the time comes, to let go.
Much love to everyone,
Tara
Happy first new moon of spring – what a great time for new starts! I hope you are all feeling the courage, optimism and faith renewal that this moon can bring. Those of you in NY, a reminder that we are meeting on the evening of the 8th, 8:30pm. I’ll email again that day with full details but looking forward to seeing you in person!
Calling the circle As we contemplate this new moon, we call to the spirits of our season, the spirits of the East. New beginnings, new starts. Element of air, first breath – the power of life, springing forth. We call the spirits of the East and ask them to join our circle.
We call now to the spirits of the South, spirits of strength, power, warmth, clarity, motivation, energy, movement. Element of fire, the power of light, bright and powerful. The fire that is our passion, burning deeply within us always. We call the spirits of the South and ask them to join our circle.
And we call to the Spirits of the West. Spirits of our deepest feelings, our strongest emotions, our truest love. A sunset over a calm ocean, a still lake reflecting back the sky, the still waters that run deep, deep within. Element of water, emanating the power of love. We call to the spirits of the West and ask them to join our circle.
Now we call to the spirits of the North. Spirits of midnight, dark moonless skies in winter, places where truths are told, where laws are made. Element of earth, grounding us. Power of law, karma, ancestral wisdom, we call to the spirits of the North and we ask them to join our circle.
And we call to those spirits above us, angels, stars, heavens, light beings everywhere, those souls not yet incarnate. Children of our children. We call the spirits above and ask them to join us.
And we call to the spirits below us, to the earth that grounds us and keeps us steady, the green kingdom with its deep roots and to the lava beneath the crust that impassions us. We call the spirits below and ask them to join us.
Finally, we call to the spirits of the center, where all the directions meet and merge and where they meet and merge in each one of us. The central flame. The sacred spirit. This circle is closed, a safe and sacred circle where everyone is welcome and free to express herself.
Where is the Moon?
This new moon lands in Aries, joining the sun, focusing on our own individual goals and abilities to manifest our will in the world. This is the biggest and best new moons for raising some energy and making things happen. It is the moon of youth and vigor and innocence - remembering how easy it was to accomplish impossible tasks until they suddenly seemed hard. Believe powerfully in yourself and your ability to move mountains!
Talking stick
By a design that has nothing to do with moons, I find myself spending this particular one in New York again. Owen has school breaks in between his terms that are four weeks long, so it makes sense to take this time to come to New York to catch up with work. I like that I am here for it though, particularly in light of the particular theme of how even seemingly insurmountable tasks were a great deal easier to accomplish without the filters of age and experience, and somehow New York represents that perfectly. I was young here and often didn’t think about how hard something that I wanted to accomplish was, I just decided and went off in that direction. Not everything worked exactly the way I wanted it to, but in the meanwhile there were some genuine miracles that came out of that exuberance.
I don’t mean to suggest that I don’t have the ability to harness that exuberance and enthusiasm and belief in myself now because in fact I think I do. I feel stronger and more powerful. But – I also have those filters and they are an asset in many ways, but they also have the potential to be a liability. Sometimes I don’t want to think through every consequence, I just want to act, feel, intuit, move. I am definitely trying to embrace more of that over the last few months, and what I feel the most as a result is that my creativity has really been buzzing, lots of new thoughts and ideas that I want to pursue. I’m really grateful for this renewal, timed with this new spring, because back in December things really felt a bit sticky and mired. Glad to be out of it!
I also want to note that Owen is six now, and really becoming such a wonderful, sharp, loving and funny little person. I feel so unbelievably grateful to be a mother. It has changed me immeasurably and in all the ways that I hoped it would. It is a constant challenge to face myself, learn, grow and adapt. And, the main thing, which ties into the moon theme as well, is it is never the same. Owen is constantly in motion and cannot be pigeon-holed. It is different every day and it reminds me not to allow myself to get stuck in ruts of belief about myself as well.
That sounds like an excellent new moon intention: to remember that I am always changing and different and not get stuck in ruts of thinking about myself!!
Meditation Imagine yourself lying beneath a fragrant apple tree, on a warm, clear spring evening. You are surrounded by flowers, lying on soft earth, breathing in and out in time with the breeze, in time with the stars. As you breathe, you feel yourself getting smaller and smaller, until you are so small that you are able to walk right into the tree. As you look up, you note the vast branch system, how tall and high it is, looking down, you note the vast root system, reaching down into the earth farther than you can see. Then, notice that one of the roots is larger than the others, and resembles a spiral staircase that you can walk down. Imagine then stepping onto the 13th step, the step of transformation, then spiraling down and around and inward to the 12th step, then down and around to the 11th and the 10th, spiraling down and around and inward to the 9th, then the 8th, then around and inward to the 7th and the 6th step. Then, pausing on the sixth step, note that as you look up you can no longer see the top, and looking down, that you can no longer see the bottom. You are standing in the middle of the spiral, in a moment of infinite perfection. If there is anything that you are carrying that you don't want to take with you on your journey, you can leave it on this step. Continuing then to the 5th step and the 4th, spiraling around to the 3rd and the 2nd and then finally the 1st step, then stepping into a clearing with four doorways, each pointing in one of the four directions. Imagine yourself walking down the pathway that heads east.
The time of day is early morning, and the earth warm and light, the sun shimmers and everything is just buzzing with life. You are struck by the intensity of animation of the animals, insects, plants all vibrantly glowing in the light of morning. You listen to their sounds as you walk, listening for anything that you need to hear. As the path winds deeper into the meadow, you become aware of a dwelling in the distance, one that you know well. You move toward it, knowing that you have reached the home of your wise woman.
As you are about to knock, the door opens and your wise woman greets you, welcoming you in. Her home is as completely comfortable and safe for you, and she leads you to the kitchen where she is cooking. She offers you whatever it is that she has cooked for you, and you sit and eat or drink with her, asking any questions that you may have, or asking for any wisdom that she might wish to share with you.
When you are ready, she leads you down a hallway, with many doors. You walk to the doorway at the end of the hall, noticing anything in particular about the door as you walk through. You step out into the air and begin to fly. You are able to fly over your life, see all the people and places within it; you can fly to the future or the past, anywhere you need to go. Your wise woman flies with you so that if you have any questions along the way, she can answer them for you. Finally, you fly to a place, time, or circumstance where you really want to be. You become one with the you that is in that place and you really experience what that life feels like, and anything you need to know about creating it, staying in it, or really anything else about it. When you feel you are fully able to create that life, you separate again, flying back to your wise woman house. You fly back to the door, and when you are ready, you open it and step back through.
You head back toward the kitchen, sharing any last minute thoughts, asking any last minute questions. As you reach the door of the house you say your goodbyes, and while in her embrace, she whispers one word or phrase and presses an object into your hand that will help you to remember the wisdom that you received. You thank her, then you return to the path that runs along side the stream, listening again to any of the sounds of the water, or just noticing anything else that you need to see. When you are ready, you walk through the doorway.
Stepping back up onto the first step, spiraling upward and outward to the second step and the third, and upward and outward to the fourth step and the fifth. Then spiraling around to the sixth step, and pausing now on the sixth step, retrieving anything that you left behind before, or just leaving it behind in that perfect moment in infinity. Climbing now to the seventh and upward to the eighth, upward and outward to the ninth, then the tenth, and around to the eleventh and the twelfth and then finally to the thirteenth step, the step of transformation, then back into to the tree. Stepping out of the tree, you find your place beneath it, again enjoying the cold night air. Then, feeling your consciousness return to the space you are in, and, when ready opening your eyes.
Prayers for our circle
Sacha, may you be welcomed home with love and light, you will be so missed here in the UK! Also lots of love, support and healing for Felicity, Sacha’s mom.
For a couple of women who are friends of my mother’s, both of whom I was close to growing up and both of whom are really struggling physically. That they find the strength to carry on, or when the time comes, to let go.
Much love to everyone,
Tara
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